Imposter Syndrome
Im 24 years old but yet i feel so young.
And because of that, i feel imposter syndrome…
Imposter Syndrome is the persistent feeling of self-doubt and inadequacy, despite evidence of success.
It's like having a nagging inner voice that questions your abilities and achievements, even when you're doing well.
See I’ve been creating art my entire life. Since I was a young young boy. So, I believe in my heart that I am an artist. Truly.
It’s always been what i enjoy most in life. Yet there is still something inside of me that feels I am not enough, or haven’t done enough to deserve the title. Which is kind of a great motivator…
But, it can also bring me down sometimes.
I believe that this feeling is partially caused by the world that we live in. We are force-fed these internet stars who share their art and receive tons of recognition for it, usually based on their looks or who they’re dating.
And this leads to comparison… which many say is the thief of joy.
This comparison of their recognition and success vs mine makes me feel like right now i am not an artist…
It makes me feel like i am nothing. Though I know this is not true.
Without fans and followers I am still an artist. I MAKE ART.
Without that I am still a husband, a friend, a son, and so much more.
Without that I am still passionate about what i am doing.
I want to help the world
I want to be a lighthouse. I want to spread hope.
I want to be there for others, just as other artists have been there for me throughout my life. Its amazing what art can do for the world, and I want to contribute to that.
We all have issues. We all have struggles. We all have trauma.
That should be known and understood by the world. Nobody should feel alone in their problems, we all have them.
Sadly, many people feel as though they have nobody to talk to about these things, and most of the world cannot afford to spend $100 per session to tell a therapist how they feel…
But maybe… just maybe, art can help.
Maybe through art I can help by being there and telling that person that I’ve been there too. That I’ve felt that too.
I’ve had that experience or one like it. And it hurts, but we make it through. We push forward, together.
We must… because the thing about time is that you either live it or practice escapism, but the time will still pass regardless.
You don’t get much so you better use it wisely.
